I have spent many years having Christmas alone. At first I hated it. But now I feel like I've gotten used to it. But it still hurts when Christmas comes.

For me, it's a nice period for a couple of weeks before Christmas. But when Christmas Eve comes, then I feel bad. Although it's not that bad for me if the weather is nice and I can go bike riding. Christmas just means a day off from work for me - but that in itself is nice.

It's worse for me on New Year's Eve at night. New Year's Day is my birthday. I get depressed now when I get a year older.