Winenot- I would definitely tell him about this if for one reason--that you believe it's behind the anger you are feeling. Unaddressed anger can get really toxic and really keep you stuck in it; worse, it turns into depression after so long. If he reacts negatively, it says more about him than it says about you. If he handles it well, then it will really be super helpful to you and the relationship imo.
I've disclosed to T things I've found about him online thru google. I felt worried and guilty about finding things about his personal life (because I assumed he did not want to share his personal life with me) but he reassured me that I have as much of a right to this information as anyone else does because it is publicly available. Talking about it with him has led to a more 'real' relationship, with more intimacy and connectedness. Now we talk about his family dynamics, his interests, his feelings about things. This has really changed our relationship in the most positive way. I know some of this is different than your situation..
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He's always said it's baffling that someone as young as me would have feelings for him, because he is "old enough to be my grandfather."
I've always thought that was such an odd thing for him to say, especially knowing what i know.
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This could be affecting your trust. You may be doubting whether or not he is who he portrays himself to be. Maybe there are also fears of abandonment going on here. Regardless, if he handles it well, it could really allow your relationship to grow.
I hope you do tell him so that you have the opportunity to work through these issues. I think you might be endlessly stuck if you don't. But it's a risk, and I can appreciate that. Glad you have the other T to help you with this. Take care.