Cremedelacreme: don't overwhelm yourself with this whole situation, just try and make the best choices you can - one choice at a time.

Once you've withdrawn from Paxil, you'll feel much calmer.

I get so mad so easily it's just ridiculous. I have come to feel embarrassed with myself, but whatever, I can do better next time!

And each time you make a choice, it's a fresh new start: your boyfriend will get over this, he'll just be glad that you have calmed down.

Don't force yourself to have to review your actions and feel bad about them right now, just allow yourself to change in the way you want to change.

I understand that there are other factors in your problem - you aren't on paxil right now, and that makes one feel differently. But you need to change gears, from what it sounds like.

Sometimes soft music makes me feel guilty for how angry I've been, BUT: it calms me down and helps me to stop lashing out. Instead of Hulk smash, Hulk smile and pet bunny.

Focus on something else: the reason exercise gets mentioned so much is because when you direct that energy towards something else, you get rid of it in a healthy manner. You can also try reading. And yes: sometimes not being around someone for a little while can help, too. Then you can cool off and try again when you aren't feeling as angry.

Sometimes concentrating on something else can be a big help: texting with a friend or chatting online, watching a funny movie (laughter will help you be less angry!), painting, pulling some weeds out of a garden, taking a relaxing bath - anything to change the focus to something else.

I hope that the feelings of rage can go away for you, it must be very tough.