Another grey-clouded chilly day of depression. This morning I was in a stupendous brain-fog, dropping and losing bits and pieces of time - 5 minutes here, 10 minutes there. The fog is clear now, but it's dark. I feel uneasy, parents drinking and I know tonight will be no different than all the others. Cried myself to sleep last night, in the dark, feeling so alone. It is ironic, that the very time in my life I feel I most need someone is the time I look around and find that I'm alone. I pray for something better to come along soon, but have no hope of it ever materializing.