It's been a few years since I last talked with this friend and I'm struggling tonight. I know I should call and do something with someone but ...... I don't want to. Which is one thing that my t said to watch out for. I just don't want to bug who ever has the crisis phone. and I almost don't want to tell people... I know that thinking is distorted.

I realized that 6 years ago to the day was my first hospitalization, and I'm being reminded of them. I know it's not my friend's fault but I'm going through crap and he is not doing what he had planned for tonight and I feel bad about that.

Any advice??