I don't really care where I'm at on the spectrum. I'm bipolar and so I know that my moods are erratic, unpredictable, undesirable, unexplainable and still need to be kept in check by me somehow. The only time I need to be reminded that I'm bipolar and what spectrum or 'phase' I'm in, is when I'm completely out of control and have lost my ability to rationally think, so my doctors try to explain to me what is going on. The rest of the time, I could care less.