Not sure if this is the best location to post this, but oh well.

I am currently struggling with suicidal thoughts. I'm so tired of being upset. I cry uncontrollably daily. Every single day has at least one meltdown. Whether I'm just frustrated with side effects from drugs, or my parents tell me "it's not long term, just a nervous breakdown because you're too overbooked", or my husband is too busy for date night... either way, my reactions feel incredibly exaggerated. I used to be sweet and understanding, but now I'm starting to feel distant from everyone except one friend (who's had to talk me out of suicide three times). I feel done. I'm tired of dealing with life.. since all life feels like recently is one upset upon another. I'm not looking for any specific advice.. just hoping getting these words out there will help. I'm trying not to worry my husband, but I'm finding my reasons for living less and less important. I must want to live, but I'm worried that I'll do something rash (like driving into on-coming traffic, like I wanted to do today) before I can calm down.