I can definitely relate. Loneliness is something I've dealt with my entire life. And I so get what you wrote about wanting someone to share art and ideas with. It's almost a physical ache within me sometimes.

But I can't--won't--believe that things will never change. Because they will, that's just the nature of this world. Things change, and we ourselves change, often when we least expect the changes to occur. As cliched as it sounds, you really never know what's around the next corner. So don't give up.

For me--and perhaps you feel the same way--I find compassion towards others--or as much as I can muster--to be the most soothing tool to ease the loneliness.

Anyway, I wish you well and I hope you'll accept a hug from a new friend