I just want to be comfortable and functional. I'm not as concerned with being normal as I used to be. Normal isn't interesting and doesn't seem real. What really helped me stop worrying about being normal was finding things that weren't normal, and loving them just as they are. I kind of constantly seek that out. Usually it is in some kind of art form. Characters in books and movies, song writers....the ones I love most have an imperfect aspect to them. When I find it it's like recognition of shared humanity. It's comforting.

But I guess the thing with me and maybe others is wanting that with real people in real time. Haven't figured that part out.