Thank you, Eskie, Psyched, MM, Trippin, and everyone.

I am anxious because of the background search uncertainty. I guess I should not be but I am - not ingesting food, feeling queasy and all of that.

Luckily, I have two small parts in a Nativity play and learning the lines by heart is kind of grounding. Plus, it was my childhood dream to be cast in a Nativity play. And, and, and... I wondered how the costume would fit because I am not, well, extremely thin , and when the organizer wrote to me that she has a size 14 dress, I was afraid that it would be too small, but it was just right. Even a bit loose, because I wore it over my regular skirt and blouse, and for the performance I will be wearing it the regular way.

Tomorrow two potential tenants would look at the place. So far I have only had one person actually come in and look, and I thought he liked it (I allow cats and he has one), but he wrote that he would rent another place, because it is next to his best friend's house. I said: "OK, sure, pass it along, and by the way, here are all the local resources for your cat - the vet, where to get food, etc. - since you are relocating with the cat". He appreciated it and did pass my posting along so one of the people who would look at the place tomorrow is through that guy with a cat.

If I end up with both of them wanting the place, I will choose the person with the better "vibe". I am not going to try to extract more money from the tenant because when your tenant is your roommate, how you get along matters very much. An extra 50-100 bucks would not be worth roommating with a less pleasant person to me, right?..

Eskie I wil read your message in depth once I get medical insurance and will have options. right now I already see a migraine attack coming so let me reach for the Imitrex spray...

Intellectually it is clear to me - I stop eating and drinking because of anxiety, and skipping meals and rehydration give me a migraine attack, and then a vicious cycle start. Understanding this intellectually does nothing to stop the vicious cycle though