Struggling with emotional pain (time of year) and physical pain (neck injury).

One of my primary coping mechanisms is going for long walks, but it's not safe at the moment as the swelling around the slipped disc compresses nerves and i have dizzy spells. And the pain is so intense at times i can't breathe, let alone walk. It also makes me feel really sick.

May have to wait a while for physio through the public health system, which is stressing me out because of the pain while i wait. But physio was traumatising last time (the physical contact, the pain) so i'm also dreading it.

And it just feels so incredibly unfair that i'm having to deal with all this physical pain (plus the scariness of having a spontaneous unexplained injury) during the most triggering time of year.

I just feel so miserable.