(((((shortandcute)))))
You have been fighting for a long time, indeed.

I am sorry that things haven't gone well for you. Social Security must have some sort of excuse as to why your case has been denied.
I have been on SSI for 6 years, I think? Anyway... it is not an easy road. Every 6 months - 1 year I have a slew of paperwork that needs to be filled out again. Ridiculous!

I have gotten hopeful a couple of times, thinking that I might be able to get off SSI and maybe get a decent paying job someday. {I was in absolute La -La Land with those thoughts!} It's just hard sometimes, because there's a real heavy & thick ceiling between disabled and general society. Hard to describe what I'm feeling. Sorry. I am thankful that I was awarded SSI, of course, but it can be a tough challenge. Maybe trying to figure out another plan is the right choice for you now.
Gentle hugs and best wishes to you.