The relationship ending was inevitable. After the last violent outburst. But I feel sad. Really really sad. I don't understand why. I'm looking forward to him not being here. His stuff not being here (although he tells me he's not taking most of it!). I think I'm sad because I'm scared. Because I'm so used to being angry that I don't know how to feel. Sad because he really doesn't love me or care for me. Sad because I failed (my marriage). Sad because there was potential, but he changed. And was no longer the person I once knew. Sad because I gave up my friends for him, & now I have no-one. Sad because my kids deserved better! Just sad. And scared for the future. Not looking forward to the arguments to come.