I have bipolar type 2. I recently decided to stop taking all my medications cold turkey. My psychiatrist and psychologist do not know this yet. However I weighed myself for the first time and discovered that I gained approximately 15 or more pounds since I started taking the meds. Aside from the not so great side effects such as nausea - I do NOT like the weight gain part. I've never obsessed over my weight but exercise weekly and eat clean (most of the time) I guess I am a little vain and think appearance/weight is more important than stabalizing my moods. However being off the medications I have realized how unstable I really am. Last week I personally felt very good aside from having anxiety but now I'm in a deep depression and want to commit suicide. I feel bad that I put my husband through all of this but I seriously cannot help it.I've already been hospitalized several weeks ago because I was suicidal but felt like it didn't help much. So over being bipolar, it's mentally killing me.