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Old Dec 21, 2014, 01:01 PM
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I kinda skimmed through all this as best I could.
I'm glad you have a team you are working with, but it still sounds like you are in a cycle that needs broken.
It might be good to look at what you are trying to numb-out when you take the pills.
You might want to contact also SAFE Alternatives (S.A.F.E. Alternatives® | Locations). They specialize in self-harming behaviors. A psych hospital stay may be an option if you can't seem to break the cycle on your own. I wnet through a period of about a year and a half of progressively worse SI that constantly landed me in the hospital for severity. I finally entered a specialized program which helped a lot (I went to a trauma specialty unit). If you do go the psych route, I would suggest a program that offers therapy, not just med stabalization (aka: not simply a general psych unit, but someplace that can start to address the underlying issues).
Also, DBT may be the most popular treatment refferral for self-injury and emotion regulation, but it's not for everyone. If you are feeling that it is either not helping, or more triggering, I would urge you to keep asking for alternatives. I happen to be very triggered by DBT and it has become life-threatening every time I have tried it (well over 7 times because those I worked with were sure it was the only way I could heal). I found (for myself) that intensive therapy where I can address my triggers and what they actually trigger with the help of a supportive person is more effective than all the DBT in the world. I know I need to address my trauma before I can totally give up my self-harm. DBT can have some useful skills though, so if you can take any of the info they give you and tailor it to your needs, it can be a great resource. I never did find the behavior chains helpful. They felt demeaning and trivializing because I still felt horribly alone in dealing with everything.
keep trying and reaching out. And keep looking for alternatives that may be helpful when what they suggest doesn't work.
Thanks for this!
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