hi psychsearcher
I don't believe anybody will tell you that you are bent here. this doesn't sound like it has anything to do with OCD to me, but then I am not OCD so I don't know for certain. Maybe posting it in the OCD forum would get you more responses. Im am trying to think of what the best forum to put it in but I am at a loss. I will ask some of the other liaisons to take a look to see if they have an idea. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome