I am sorry you are feeling so low and you do not have the support of your boyfriend. this isn't the best way to find out he wasn't the right man for you. I think the fact that you car stopped was a sign that you are needed here. I see it as the gods saved you, not that they didn't want you there. I am hoping that you have a therapist that you can talk to about how you are feeling. there are people here that care about how you feel as well. please reach out before you try anything else.