Guys, did you ever feel like something is terribly wrong with you? Like for some reason, at one moment of your life, you became so defective and broken person in comparison to everyone else? Like you don't know what it is exactly, but its something with your brain, with your mind, with your body that is very wrong and makes you freak of nature, inferior person to every other normal human being? That something will always hold you from becoming successful, socially accepted person with fulfilled life with people who love you? I have been thinking about suicide a lot recently. I don't know what will prevail in my in the end - strong fear of death or strong loathment to my personality. I hope neither, but its unlikely. So, am i the only one with feeling like this?