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Originally Posted by sideblinded
(((tealBumblebee)))
You could be your own therapist if you wanted to be. You have rationalized your own thinking and you already know why you are doing what you are doing. So what can I tell you? Only what you already know. Your T said you sound lonely but you don't want to be around anyone either. So maybe you are putting up your own walls to protect yourself in some way. When you figure that out with your T, you will have solved most of your problems.
I hope you stay practical and intelligent!
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Thank you.
I almost feel like maybe i'm trying to knock down some walls that I didn't mean to put up so high?
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Originally Posted by Little Jay
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Originally Posted by ThisWayOut
only you can really answer that question... but since it's on this forum, maybe it's taking the place of your cutting in the moment - hurting yourself without the intent to kill yourself? Maybe it's pushing your own limits? Or maybe it's a conversation opener for soemthing you need to address with T? I dunno. just thoughts.
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Thanks for the thoughts. I took a couple more after this post but went on chat for a distraction and I think that helped me from going overboard and then eventually I couldn't fight it anymore and fell asleep from them. Gratefully I don't feel bad this morning. Maybe i'm going crazy but I actually woke up feeling better than I have been in a while. Like I had gotten the best rest I have in a while. You make a good point about it being a possible substitution for cutting. I'm not sure I want to tell T about it though ....don't want her to worry about si when thats not the case... Anyways it was dumb but the way I see it, even if I wanted to overdose in the future to that point, now I have that many less pills to do it with and my "stash" is no longer an effective amount. Maybe I saved myself a little bit...