Thank you! the hot session went very well. im glad i followed through the plan even though i was scared.

i still inside feel this push/pull feelings about him but this helped to make them fade and now i feel kind of neutral (like MrGrendel said, no intense feelings) but since i also feel more in control it is a "positive-neutral". i mean... i have hope.

Thank you for your support!
wish you all the best!