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Originally Posted by alk2601
I often feel like I will never have the ability to build healthy relationships with people.
But I guess hearing from other people like you gives me hope. I think we just need to find more people like ourselves to interact with, who would understand where we are coming from.
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Yes, building healthy relationships...Perhaps I even scare people away by sharing too little or even too much somehow. I don't know anymore, but I think you're right. I'm more willing than I ever have been to speaking to others. I just haven't met the right individuals and there's no reason to think it won't happen given the right opportunity. Luck does play a part in this too, along with an open mind and willingness.
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Originally Posted by AstridLovelight
I can definitely relate. Loneliness is something I've dealt with my entire life. And I so get what you wrote about wanting someone to share art and ideas with. It's almost a physical ache within me sometimes.
But I can't--won't--believe that things will never change. Because they will, that's just the nature of this world. Things change, and we ourselves change, often when we least expect the changes to occur. As cliched as it sounds, you really never know what's around the next corner. So don't give up.
For me--and perhaps you feel the same way--I find compassion towards others--or as much as I can muster--to be the most soothing tool to ease the loneliness.
Anyway, I wish you well and I hope you'll accept a hug from a new friend  |
Thank you, AstridLovelight. I've experienced that physical ache too and it opened my eyes to just how badly it's affected me these years. And yes, change is about the only real constant. I think I give far more weight to things changing for the worst rather than better and I've really tried to work on my thought patterns. I didn't want to admit how demoralized I've become, but it's hard to ignore now.
Sometimes I make and send letters in cards to various people I have addresses to from over the years. None are close friends, but I always hope one day one of those letters might be given a reply. I wish the lack of response didn't hurt how it does, because I can't expect to be on anyone's list of important enough people, but you know. It's a very small hope that one day I will be considered enough to be given that bit of time. It helps just to say it would make me happy to receive a nice letter, so those who receive mine may feel that way too and appreciate it all the same.
Anyway, thank you guys for listening.