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Originally Posted by Mefisto
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Its actually very smart piece you wrote there. I never was betrayed like that before, but many people abandoned me, including few friends and more important - my father left me when i was 5 years old. Its very possible that is related to my condition right now.
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Glad to hear you had this insight and can make this connection. You may very well be able to diffuse the feelings of 'deadly hate' that you feel over these current circumstances with those 2 individuals by increasingly reflecting upon how these emotions you're experiencing are also rooted in prior life experiences and therefore these 2 individuals are not solely responsible for the extent of the pain/hurt you are feeling. Does that make sense? It may help for you to try and focus on releasing the emotional energy associated with your father's absence. I know it's challenging and difficult to address but that may be the major source of your pain & fears surrounding 'abandonement'.
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Originally Posted by Mefisto
I loved this genre before. My ex-gf was a brilliant piano player. Now when i hear piano, i want to puke.
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Well the good news is that there's no piano playing in those pieces I recommended hehe... Just cello and some other string instruments...
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Originally Posted by Mephisto
Hiking is impossible right now, its coldest winter here and im swamped with my studies and work. Can you offer some book titles?
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I really enjoyed 'The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself' (Michael Singer). Try to scour Amazon.com for books written to aid in the healing process / releasing emotional pain, etc. You can read reviews and I believe you can also utilize Google Books website to preview various books and see if you might like the author's writing style. Find a text that calls your name and then explore it with an open mind.
I hope you feel better soon....