Sorry you are feeling this way-I understand how you feel about your grandparents mine passed away 2003 & 2005 & I still cry at times but it's not as intense as it once was. Please remember you are not alone & the fact that you are working & went to your family gathering shows your strength-I have missed many get-togethers due to my issues. Take care & keep posting here & let your pdoc/tdoc know how you are feeling