Well, I'm new to this, but I think i need an outlet for my thoughts.

It's been two weeks since I started escalating into depression. I feel there are a lot of factors that caused it (rejection, stressful work environment, lots of money owed to the police department just in time for the holidays). It is definitely affecting my job performance, which just sends me further down the spiral. I don't like producing bad food (I'm a cook at a bar, btw), my work is a reflection of myself. Its been about 2 weeks since I've sent out a good order. We are a small, local business, so when food is bad, I am destroying my workplace and potentially leading to the shutdown of a locally owned business, which we need more of in corporate America.

I am here venting this because I don't have any friends to vent this out to. I am socially awkward, and making new friends is difficult for me (first impressions make or break relationships, that is why I haven't had a love interest in years). I do have a friend I hang out with, but he'd just call me a pansy for being emotional. I'm done talking to my mom about it; I am stressing her out before the holidays with this talk. I hope I don't do the same to you all