Despite your mom wanting you to no longer go to the gym, you're the one who cut your pass up.

Things with your ex weren't totally over - she said she wanted to, but that things needed to get sorted out with your mom. So you throw in the towel and decide that there's no point in working on things with your mom? That's really sorta backwards.

What you did is that you caved to your mom throwing a fit - but that was your choice. She can't physically make you comply with what she wants. She just acted out, and you decided to give in.

And honestly? Why do you keep going along with your mom's arguments that she owns everything? The properties were left in your name. You sold them and bought the new place - that means the place and stuff is yours. Unless she pays you rent then really, the fact that she's paid for a few car payments is moot - because you paid for the roof over her head, so it sort of balances things out.

You really should try therapy to see if someone could help you. After this outburst you could always tell your mom it's for anger management.

Like others above have said though.... you need to own and take responsibility for your own choices. It's the only way to really move forward any. Once you learn to see and accept your choices as yours, then you'll be able to work on making better choices for yourself. As it is, if you put your choices down as being your mom's doing, then how could it ever change... because you can't change another person.

Yes, you've been basically brainwashed throughout your life. You and your mom have a hugely codepedent reliance on another. And, while that wasn't your fault as you grew up, you have options now and choices you can make, and you're still choosing to go with what your mom wants. She wants it, but you choose to give it to her.