Hi ThunderGoddess

I certainly don't know why you do this but I think it would be worth going to a therapist and asking them what they think. I don't know if there is an OCD component to this or maybe you just found a way to entertain yourself. You mentioned that you try to stop this so that is why I think of OCD. Of course there could be more to it. I would check into this for sure.

Best wishes!