Lately, I have been thinking that breaking up with my wife, and thereby giving her a chance to live a 'normal' life with a 'normal' spouse, would be the only decent thing to do. Particularly as she is a very smart, beautiful and all around wonderful person? Sometimes I think I just conned her into this without revealing what life with me would really be like. As a case in point, she now wants to have children but I just don't think I am capable, that is 'normal' enough to do it. While the holidays are here and with it large social gatherings, I avoid the latter as they are just so hard on me emotionally;petending to be happy, comparing myself to others, observing others seemingly 'perfect' lives etc. In fact, there are so many important social gatherings, such as weddings, that I have messed up.

It is just one thing after another and I just think that she has put up with enough.

Do others everr feel this way?