Since quite some time, i have felt like i have hardly any emotions in me. (Could be one or two years by now)
Recently i have noticed that whenever i TRY to bring up strong sadness or happiness, i have a gag reflex. When i try it multiple times, i will most likely throw up. It's like my brain wants to stop me from feeling sad or happy.
When i was a kid, i always tried to hide my emotions from others, i never showed that i was very happy and i never cried in front of anyone (I think i was just really shy). This might have led to some kind of emotional suppression that has slowly brought me to the condition i am in right now, but i have no idea how to get out of it. Does anyone have expierience with this, and maybe some advice?