Hi there... saw you in chat but you were busy and we were not really able to connect... not sure what you were so busy with but glad to provide my feedback.

I read your bio here and I would tell you that you need to keep searching for a T that you can relate too. You are young and have much to give the world and the world has much to teach you and give you. Sometimes the right T is difficult to find but there are ones out there that you can enjoy working with. It is not easy work but it is worthwhile work. Given the depression depth you have found, particularly right now, you would be good to have some meds too I bet but you need to get talking. Your friends will be good to offer support and diversion but they are not educated in how to help you and they will not be able to give you what you need medically.

Please reach out and get help and find someone there that can assist you.

Also, I do believe in my Seasonal affective disorder light SAD and use it here while I am at my computer. I love it. It will not be the thing to heal you while you are so deeply depressed right now but it will help and it is a dandy light.

Take care. I will keep an eye out here if you care to respond.