Hey sunrise, I love your interpretation. I've given this so much thought as well. I finally had my session yesterday after 18 days.

I know that how I feel about my T is genuine in the sense that I feel very close to him and connected. I also realize that this is missing from my life. Although, lately my husband is back to trying again.

He's been actively being more physical with me and talking to me more. He is the one who actually helped me for the past 18 days in between sessions. I told my T this too. He is very happy and said my husband is learning...he had that genuine smile again so I know he meant it.

I told him that when I obsessed between sessions about my T not calling me back, wanting me to graduate blah, blah, blah...

My husband said and I quote "hasn't your T earned the right of the benefit of the doubt yet?" and he went on to say that he was wrong for interfering and not being apart of the therapy and that he was SORRY for trying to get me to end what I am doing. He sees real benefit not just for me but now for him.

He then chuckled and said "I should go back to your T, I bet he and I have a lot to talk about". meaning I rarely give my husband the benefit of the doubt either...we both laughed. In any case, my husband is now actively involved with me. It is progress.

So, the 18 days actually brought us closer and I'm starting to feel real emotion for him and he for me. We are taking it slow.