You are so lucky to be in love.

I would not end anything. I would just journel first. I would tell myself, I can have love, have proper diet and have it all.

As far as the weight you have to lose, here is some of my tested advice and I would say to take it and try it pretty well because it might really be rewarding:

1) write down each time you eat.

2) exercise for fifteen minutes when you can during the day.

3) Take ginko , gurana, or green tea capsules during the day inbetween meals but don't take more than five of each the whole day.

4) If you screw up, beat yourself up less than you have been doing.

5) don't judge yourself, compare yourself, or tire yourself out with thoughts on weight, weight loss or anything not happy

6) Please your man. Smile around him. Be grateful and really think about when you two first meet. Always reflect on those things. Show him that affection all through time. Tell your friends your major sad troubles, not him, very very often. Make use of his great appreciation for you.

7) Really appreciate yourself, no matter what.