How long ago did you stop your meds? It can take a few weeks to even months for them to stop messing with you.

What you describe does not sound like my mixed episodes. My mixed episodes are this burning energy inside me, making my skin tingle and burn. I can sleep with meds, not without, I am constantly and dangerously suicidal, I self harm to try and let the energy out. If anyone gets on my bad side they get their head ripped off. Im completely agitated and energetic yet so low I feel I cant live another day.