I know I am not alone in this one, who else gets stressed out during the holiday season? And we all know what stress causes.....

Feel free to skip the long post and write what is causing you stress and how you will handle it this year.


I really thought I would be ok this year. Really. My t/pdoc and I were very confident about me going into this christmas season and being able to cope...

Well that was before they started showing the 10 year anniversary of the Boxing day Tsunami all over the TV.... exactly 10 years ago on boxing day I was in a locked ward, put there by my grandparents. My grandmother lives 3000 km away so I didnt think I would have to worry about her this year.... til I was informed she is coming over on Boxing day (for those of you that dont know - boxing day is the day after christmas). I've been triggered by the TV coverage, it has brought back nightmares and memories of that time. Now I have to face the one who put me there at the same time of the year that she put me there, exactly 10 years on.

I am extremely anxious. I havent done much to combat the anxiety yet as I kinda forgot what to do when the memories hit me. This post is an attempt to get me to help myself out of this. I havent been this anxious for months.

I have countless chores to do but not much "fun" to do right now. My pdoc is always saying I need more fun and less chores, but the chores need to be done and that leaves no energy for fun, especially when Im running on such high anxiety.

I guess my next step is to CBT this stuff. See if that helps. Maybe do some more exercise and go outside, seems like such hard work when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and rock.