((((hugs))) I think you are working very hard on building a good relationship with your T. I hope that as you share the strong feelings, they will transform into good emotions and a good relationship that is the proper one for therapy work. This is therapy work, though, and I do not discount it.

I wish that all patients could be honest with their Ts, and realize what you are finding out. Perhaps by your sharing such intimate thoughts here, you are helping them realize they, too, can get through what seems impossible.



PS I bet he already suspects how you want him.