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Originally Posted by BonnieJean
I was feeling in session today that it is really sadistic to have a relationship where someone is nice and caring to you, who listens to you but they are out of bounds and unreachable. It is not a mutual relationship. I will never know my t as a person. I understand the reason for and use of the structure, boundaries, etc. for therapy to happen but I whole thing just feels like a cruel game to me right now. I feel like a failure for not being able to exist in said relationship. I told my t that today.
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It feels cruel and the desire is always for more but I think T is better as my therapist than anyone else. Yes we probably would have been good friends and yes I wish she weren;t out of bounds to know but T is better in my life as a therapist more than a friend or anything else. I wouldn't want to move through this process with anyone else.