hi i am in the same exact position as you OP. honestly, i am sick of my depression, every time it hits, it feels worse than the previous time. it's been about 12 years of this and i am 24 yo. i somehow got a bachelor's degree but do not have a job or a place i can call home as my parents' house is very unhealthy for me. i am at the end of my rope.
like the others have said, you should celebrate the little victories, such as getting out of bed, eating a meal, taking a shower.
if you want to talk please pm me.