Thanks. I could use the "needed rest" excuse but i've felt that way before and this was not like that. To be honest, i'm less worried about worrying T because I think she can't handle it vs. her being so worried that she can't trust me to make safe decisions that she contacts my emergency contact (its that or admitting to hospital and quite frankly - admission sounds better than my mom knowing). I was definitely numb - which she knows, so...maybe. The thing is - nothing is going on. I have nothing to talk about. I'm not depressed. Or sad. Or anything. But...the time I legitimately attempted I wasn't either...so thats not really telling. I really want to tell her so I can talk through it and make sense of it and be 100% honest as always, but I get mad even thinking about her contacting anyone so maybe it's best to wait a couple weeks (as opposed to 48 hours later)...