I'm afraid that everyone I know will be disappointed in me/hate me if I do. I also realized while thinking about this the other day that part of my problem is I'm terrified of ever being pregnant. I thought, "If there was no way I could get pregnant, I might do it." A lot of my friends have kids and every time one of them got pregnant I thought "how scary." I lived with a girl through her whole pregnancy, birth, and with her son for a little while. The whole process gave me the nightmares.

God. I am so abnormal.