I am struggling to accept my diagnosis.

I am afraid that it may get bad enough that my absences from work will put me into trouble territory. I have to keep reassuring myself that it's okay....for now. I am just nervous to think about what the new year might bring and wonder how many absences I am going to require. (Self talk: it's not going to be the end of the world.)

I just don't want to be made to feel "less than". I don't want to be looked down upon. I don't want to lose the admiration of my family and parents, my coworkers or bosses. At the same time I have to live and be honest about what I'm going through and be genuine. That doesn't mean I can't be savvy and self-protective.

I am getting through the days until Christmas and am looking forward to celebrating with my family. Can't wait to see the kids open their gifts.