I dont feel good. Im scared. I dont think the ed is going to go away. I dont want it to go away. I dont know whats wrong. I need to throw up. I need my therapist but she cancelled tomorrow and i cant wait another week. I hate myself. I hate my body. I need to cut it off. Im going to explode. I hate feeling like this. I need to do something that will make it go away. But i know it won't work. Cuz my therapist told me that nothing can take away feelings. Only distract them. But i need them to go away.