jelly-bean, thank you for the support.

JaneC, there's actually a physio five minutes walk from my house, but unfortunately i don't have any money to pay for it. My GP has referred me to the physio department at the local hospital as it's free there.

My T would agree that 'vent' is a kinder way of looking at it. I'm not very good at being kind to myself either. Though perhaps giving myself this space to vent counts as an act of kindness.