Yeah I've changed my mind, I've now decided that the whole band will want to marry me and they'll all fight over me cos I'm so amazing. Lol, you can't say I'm not optimistic! (Obviously I'm just joking)

And just to try help further, I too have had obsessions that lasted ages and I thought I'd never get over, but then someone else comes along eventually. Or as I say, there is always someone else out there waiting to break my heart. Lol there goes that optimism, I'm sure someone will love you though, maybe someone already does and you don't even know it! That's not a come on by the way lol, just trying to cheer you up. It will all be ok one day, I'm sure of it. You seem nice and some people would say at least you feel something, which isn't much help right now I know, but just don't give up.