Hi ensconce,

I'm not a clinician, so I can't provide a diagnosis. That said, I think it's very courageous of you to, basically, pour your heart and soul out on this website.

Have you been feeling this way for a long time? Or has these feelings escalated in the last three or four months? Do you think the season (daylight, holidays) is a factor?

When I was in my early 20's I felt the same way; it was a transitional time for me. I had a ton of questions, but I didn't have any answers. Time answered most of my questions, but now I have new questions :-)

So, relax. Take a deep breath. Everything will be okay.