Everywhere I look I see a pregnant woman or a new baby... I can't help but feel jealous and I hate feeling this way. I got pregnant back in August of 2006 and we were so excited. Our due date was just 5 days before our 1st wedding anniversary (April 12,2007) When I was just 9 weeks along I started bleeding and having sharp pains in my side. When I went in for my appointment we were told that I had miscarried because there was no baby in my womb. I was sent over to the hospital for an internal ultrasound and found out that I was actually having a tubal pregnancy that would require surgery. I ended losing both our baby and one of my fallopian tubes. We were told that if I were to get pregnant again "naturally" there is a 98% chance I could have another tubal, then I wouldn't be able to have children of my own at all. Our only other option is to try invitro or something like that. Only problem is I only get disability because I can't work do to a whole list of medical issues. I have Hydrocephalus, Cerebral Palsy, Scoliosis, Chronic Migraines, Depression, PTSD, Anxiety and fibromyalgia. I feel like I will never get my chance to be a mother and that devastates me because all my friends are mothers. Last Christmas my mother told me that I don't need to be a mother because I have to many medical issues...She's the one who gave me these issues by being on drugs while pregnant with me. Then she passed away April 5 2014 exactly 9 years to the day that I met my husband and she never thought we would make it.