All of it sucks. I loooves me some hypomania though.

But I think the closest to completely insane I ever get is during mixed episodes. They are hellish. There are several times I probably should've been hospitalized, but I wasn't because I didn't go for help until the worst was over. As it is, the only time I've been hospitalized was for suicidal ideation during a particularly heinous depression. I loathe depression with every fiber of my being.