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Originally Posted by fraidykat
I hope this isn't too far off topic...
I have always found even the most constructive or non-accusing corrections to be nearly devastating to me. Even as a child, I remember wanting to crawl in a hole and hide if someone had to tell me I'm doing something wrong. for example:
Recently I posted on another forum and received a pm from a mod concerning my application. I am very cautious and analytical about ~ well, everything  ~ so I took this personally and felt horrible that I had missed a rule when I thought I read the directions very carefully. I was so upset with myself, I even shook and had heart palpitations! Anyway, I re-read every word of the website's rules and directions, and this particular subject IS NEVER ADDDRESSED. **for the record, the logical thinking part of my brain (very small, btw!) sees how stupid and small this is, but it's the typical kind of thing that will consume me for way too long!** Now, I'm feeling singled out, and pretty much mad!  Is this common to anyone else? |
I tend to re-examine social interactions over and over again (rumination), almost like an OCD thing. I frequently feel like I did or said something incorrectly and I must be a total social misfit. Then I want to avoid having to go through this feeling again and isolate, which is where I feel safest. But isolation leads to depression, so I think that to break the cycle, I need to continue to socialize until I get the hang of it.