I've been going through a mixed episode for about 8 weeks now. Quit my job, been isolating, panic attacks, depression, etc. I'm a single mom and both my kids have had the flu for over a week. My relatives are in town from overseas right now and we haven't even seen them due to all this. Honestly I don't know if I want to see them at all because I will be unable to hide my misery. To say I'm completely overwhelmed is an understatement. Oh, and I also recently relapsed on alcohol after 7 months of sobriety.