I have also had issues with thoughts that I can't distinguish if they are real or just made up in my head, cause I have a vivid imagination. So even when I am feeling sane I couldn't tell you at times if something really occured or if my mind just made it up cause it sure feels real! You are not crazy or a bad person, your mind has just decided to take over for the moment. it is easier said than done but try to rest and pamper yourself. See a therapist and a doctor if possible and let them know what is going on with you. they may possibly be able to help.

hugs to you:

Hopes