Maybe I'm a bit hard on myself. I'm not sure. I do think I need to improve in so many ways. I have to improve at work, I have to improve at home.

I have this image of who I want to be, and who I truly think I am. If I had to describe that image, it would be something like this:

"I am energetic and full of zest for life. I am passionate about my career, so every morning I wake up, spend time to make myself look good, iron my clothes and put my best foot forward. I give 110% at work, and never slack off. When I get home, I exercise, because I care about my health. My relationship is great. I am passionate and compassionate. I have time for friends and family. I am confident and excited about life."

Now, who I am today:

"I'm tired. I wake up and wish I could sleep all day long. When I finally force myself out of bed, I literally have 10 minutes to get ready to make it to work on time. I throw my hair into a messy careless bun. I pick unflattering clothes that usually aren't appropriate for a professional. I get to work and procrastinate and slack. I eat poorly through the day because I'm too exhausted to care about what I eat. When I get home, all I want to do is nothing. Usually I'm frustrated or on edge, which translates into my relationship. I look forward to bedtime, because I'm alone and sleeping.

I don't even know where to start. It's like the real me is buried deep inside, but the current me is just too lazy/tired/exhausted to bring it out. I know I have to start somewhere.....but where? How do I even begin when there's so much I need to do?