I seem so cool and collected during the day, such that no one would know what I have been through. But when I sleep I can't control myself.

I can't help but keep thinking about how I have struggled and resisted purposefully inflicting self injury only so I end up still hurting myself in my sleep.

How can these monsters who pretended to be humans haunt my sleep? Why can't I seem to protect myself?I know I must be stronger than they because I survived everything they dished out, and I never became someone who victimizes others. How is it possible that they still hold the power when I close my eyes?